Power Of Pain - The doctors have a name 4 it but do they really understand ? do u??

I sat alone another day. The world was moving all around me, but it seemed as if my life was in a standstill. The doctors say its anxiety. Everyone thinks anxiety means nervousness or fear, but it is deeper than that. Anxiety holds you prisoner. You can't leave your house. Ding Dong Ding Dong The doorbell rings but I can't answer. There is too much fear inside. You can't answer the phone. Ring Ring Ring "Telephone for you!" my family yells. I tell them to say that I will call back, but I won't. You can't eat. Chomp Bite Chew No, not me. The anxiety even controls that. All the pain rushes back up with every little thing I eat. You can't go out. Step Step Step Everyone walking around me, but I can't move, the apprehension paralyzes me. Everyone says, "Be brave. You can do it. You'll make it out of this." But sometimes I wonder if I will. I try to combat it all, but if I attempt to do anything, it all starts over again. Thump Thump Thump My heart beats faster and faster. I can feel it in my chest. Beads of sweat Racing Falling Running down my forehead. All the thoughts swarm in my brain. The fear picks up. It is unbearable. I'm so frightened, but I don't know what of. The paranoia sweeps over my body like a giant wave. Every day I have to fight what seems to be a losing battle. But then . . . I look outside. I see the colors. I see the life. I see spirit. I know I can do this. Hope Pray Win