Oh my God, After a long time mein kuch likh rahi hun..I realized ki mein apni sari purani activities bhulti ja rahi hun ... nd ya as usual jaise sabke pass excues hote hai..mere pass bhi hai.. but khete hai na ki apne aap se jhuth bolna bahut hi muskil hota hai.. 3rd august Friendship day..after a long time I met my friends.. i was feeling nice ki we could have a get together .. waise to friendship day ho ya normal day friends k liye to ek sa hi hota hai.. but something makes difference don't know whats that... humne khub masti ki.. had dinner together.. but jab ghar pahunchi aur analyze kiya to i found that kuch hai jo peeche chut raha hai mera... my behaviour got changed.. vo pehle vali puja aur ab mein kafi change aa gaya hai... jabki friends vahi hai.. same as before.. vahi pehle jaise ghanto kisi bhi topic par shuru ho jana.. PJ marna.. masti karna.. but mein shayad kisi bhi cheeje mein participate nahi kar pa rahi thi.. bas unhe sun rahi thi... has rahi thi.. varna mujhe sab pehle kehte the ki kitna bolti hai tu.. kitna hasti hai .. ab chup bhi ho ja... jabki ab sabhi jaise bhulwa rahe the..fir mene socha ki why i got changed.. kyun mein pehle jaise bindass nahi bolti.. .. kyun pehle jaise bachpana nahi raha mujhpe tab mene paya ki main reason hai changes in personal life.. ab kuch responsibilities hai jo pehle kabhi nahi thi.. nd priorities changes.. jo pehle bindas bol sakti thi.. aaj ek bat karne se pehle 10 bar sochna padta hai...hamesha bachoo jaise rahi hun,isliye hamesha vahi kiya jo dil ko sahi laga...but now situation changed.. now I have to always keep in mind ki meri kisi bachpane bhari banton se ki ko bhi hurt na ho jaye.. kuch bar galtiyan bhi karti hun.. kai bar lagta hai life mein kitne tarah k rang hai par kabhi kabhi show offs ki vajah se sare rang fike pad jate hai.. kai bar apne bhi sath nahi hote tab lagta hai kiske liye sab sochna..kiske liye kuch bhi karna.. kyun dhikhawa karna.. kyun pehle jaisi bindas life nahi ho sakti.. kyun ek sath sabko khush nahi rakha ja sakta..why can't I be the old Puja ,why ?
In sab batton se jab paresan hoti hun tab mere dear and near yahi kehta hia ki itna mat socha karo... but thinking is continuous process and mera us par koi control nahi ho sakta.. so I leave the things on GOD... as i have a great faith in GOD.. yahi soch k ki ye changes aaye hai to shayad iske peeche kuch acha chipa hoga..well now I ll try to be regular in blogging... have a good day !!!